my new beginning

well i haven't done this in a really long time. i used to have one of these on greatestjournal and i forgot my log in name. and password. and lost all my blogs.. so.. i have to start over..

well my life's changed a lot in the past year.. I was reading other ppls blogs on their pregnancy. and it was so interesting. So, I'm very disappointed that i didn't start this a lot sooner :'(

My daughter Lexie is now two months old. She will be 3 months the 21st. She is the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I never realized how exciting raising a child is. But, I also never realized how much work it would be either.

Its so crazy how much she has already grown. And how much she still has to grow. I look at kids that are like ten years old. And its hard imagining what things are going to be like in ten years. She is going to be so much different. And, as a parent I will be going threw so many different experiences in life. Its so fun, and exciting. But, also very hard work. But, it makes me realize not to want her to grow up to fast because she will never be this little ever again.

She has already grown so much. She is already almost double her weight as she was when she was born. She is looking around and sitting up, and holding her head up so well now.
She smiles, laughs, wants to play, tries to talk.
I love every moment of it.

In a way I never want her to grow up. I will miss this size and age SO much.

Well, Lexie is sleeping right now. I like to get her to sleep at ten. So, she knows what time her bed time is. and she gets tired during that time. Its my only time that i really get to myself. is when she goes to sleep. Her last Dr visit they told me that she should be able to sleep threw the night already. Which was TOTALLY shocking to me. I had no idea that. this early she could do that. So. every time that she cries in the middle of the night instead of feeding her I have just been sticking the passie in her mouth. she still wakes up like once for the passie. But im assuming that she'll start getting used to this pretty soon :) and i can get some sleep at night.

The only thing bad about putting her to sleep at ten is she only can sleep eight hrs without being fed. and being that I stay up after she goes to sleep. She wakes up at about 8 o'clock to eat. And talk. She does anything she can do to get me outa the bed and play with her. She is definitely a morning baby. every morning she wakes up and just wants to be played with and held. Its hard. But I also love it.

But, never get any sleep. But, I cant say I wasn't warned. I'm pretty sure everyone knows before having a baby that you lose TONS of sleep from them. Ha :)